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07 October 2010 @ 02:03 am
everything sucks right now. i feel like i can't trust most of the relationships in my life. all i know is i need to change the way things are.

i have a crush on the ice truck killer.
Current Location: my bedroom.
Current Mood: little tired.
Current Music: bite the hand that bleeds you
11 August 2010 @ 10:34 pm
i don't like most boys.
Current Location: my bedroom.
30 July 2010 @ 01:32 am
Family Feud is so addicting to watch and play.

Anyways, lately I've been reading Harry Potter & I've been enjoying it a lot. My family from Canada is coming in soon to spend the weekend. Today I went crabbing with family. It was okay times.

I'm sorry that this is just a series of random sentences. Not much thought put into these words, only because lately I just haven't been very thoughtful.
Current Location: living room.
Current Mood: lazytired.
Current Music: family feud.
16 July 2010 @ 10:27 am
So I bought a picture frame instead. And a pillow, as well as a small flower box. I didn't go fishing because I didn't feel like having fun. And now today I have to work at 1stop from 2 to 9. I tried to quit but somehow... wasn't able to. Luckily though, I don't have to get up past 2 that much, and when I do I only have to work till 6. It's not too bad, but it's still annoying a little.

Let's forget about all our responsibilities, just for an hour.
Current Location: my bedroom.
Current Mood: just woke up.
Current Music: the fan.
13 July 2010 @ 01:10 pm
Today I think i'm going fishing... even though I have about 1,000 other things I should be doing, or so it feels like anyhow. I desperately need to catch up on on-line homework and I also need to lean my bedroom. There is another painting I have my heart set on that i'd like to buy.
Current Location: my bedroom.
Current Mood: just woke up.
Current Music: nothing.
12 July 2010 @ 11:47 pm
I started reading HP & so far I like it. I have to finish the whole series by the Nov. 19th.

Today was a big day in the life os Sarah Khan -- I told Vishal I thought it was time for me to leave 1Stop. (Second time actually..) But this time it was a lot more serious. I didn't really get through to him at all. I have to think up what I'm definitely going to do by thursday though so they won't be able to change my mind.

I recently attempted to abandon Mel, Bipin & Ron, it didn't work and I still don't understand how people have done it to me. it didn;t solve anything,

In about 15 days I will have a new phone number and a new phone, which is pretty cool.

I think I will tell Vishal I will work up to mid August, but then I need a few weeks of vacation before school starts up again, but in case of emergencies I will be at the ready to help them out... hope that works.

Wednesday i think there will be a get together at ron's house. I'm not sure if I'll be up for going, lately I have been extremely down. I don't even feel like laughing these days. The only thing that is fun is the pool, but even my family is depressing. Always some type of fight going on. I miss my auntie fazy, she's always out.

I have to desperately lose weight, this is outta control. I want to be in better shape by my 21st birthday. Thats kindov a deadline for me i guess.

Vishal agreed to write me a letter for SAS but again, i dont even know if that would be the best idea seeing as I have no idea about my major of future plans regarding school. Sometimes i really hate reality.

Omg I still need to pick a schedule?? and a major actually.

I went to the indian part of new york the other day & i never felt more out of place. I didn't really like it or anybody in it. New york is too crowded for me, and I detest new york drivers.

I'm so behind in life. I'm not myself.
Current Location: my bedroom.
Current Mood: ok.
Current Music: frou frou.
03 July 2010 @ 11:52 pm
and ron is on aim. or ichat. steph just IMed me but i gotta go soon. im so exhautsed. too much work. aguire aint got no right makin me work lahk this.
Current Location: shop smart.
Current Mood: tired.
Current Music: silence.
28 June 2010 @ 11:52 pm
i think i've learned a lot about myself. i've also learned a lot about the people around me.

you accidentally knock a beautiful glass filled to the top with ice cold water off of the table. it falls, breaks. the beautiful glass is suddenly shattered and in a thousand hazardous pieces scattered about everywhere. now you have to watch your step or you might get hurt badly. there is a lot to clean up.
Current Location: my bedroom.
Current Music: itunes.
This is the worst moment of my life... these few months.
Current Location: my bedroom.
Current Mood: terrible.
Current Music: omen by the the prodigy.
What a nightmare this is. It's annoying enough remembering that my uncle Haniff is being burried... I am thoroughly annoyed to death myself as I listen to my two cousins bickering back and forth like a married couple. Ahneal is in the living room crying loudly and I'm burning up because there is no air conditioner or windows that we can open. I'm listening to the radio and they are talking about "cinco de drinko" which is a pretty cool way to phrase it. Speaking of drinking... I could use some malibu rum going down my throat. Just the thought gave me a slight senseation of happiness.

One of Shai's friends brought their dog named Rambo. Thoughts of Hamza still haunt me up until this day.

They were offering a bunch of junk food but I refused it all. I can't eat unhealthy around my family, I just can't. This summer I am going to become a health freak...if only to spite my family.

I guess the moral of this story is that I can't stand my family anymnore and I can't stand being overweight anymore.

I can't wait till melanie picks me up. I can't wait to finally submuit the semester at sea application. Leaving all of this behind for a semester? Yes. Please.
Current Location: my aunt's house.
Current Mood: bad.
Current Music: "felicia" by the constellations.